oh whatever drunk i am, i feel they all are void,null infront of him
nothing here could more addict me or sabotage me as he do, and nothing here could make me relaxed like he do ( excld ACHLSwR)
i keep thinking and trying to understand what kind of recalling routine i am suffering from which i hate but this is beyond my control
i should clear you that i dont do anything to please myself to think about him so i would get him as a reward, this is a rewardless misery addiction
he’s out of everything i have been through and truth being clear, atleast i cherish this is excluded by him
this is my part of desire and maybe piece of hormonal change in my adolescence
i hate, why those pair of eyes are surrounding my memory whenever I want to wish for something, is this over-free or no care to my own work ME
which is doing all these, if not then this may be a plan of devil to give me a punishment to thinking so malliciouslyh about some guy beside him
chuckling, i would say my future husband maybe covered with 48 percentage of devil auro because we need to harmonize and balance each other
love how i describe my life partner should be and hate that i still think for this shitty fella.
christ, i am draining so much of my mental energy and i think this is all useless.
i am trying to recall a new part of life which is obvious and which will lead to my happiness
i think my multi-potential phase will lead me to a new part of future world and i could definitely help in changing hte world so far
in accordance to my choice and curiosity to various linking arrows on multiple filed, my life has been dependent and i too, love to use literacy in more complex manner, tho my understaning to all this essay to so normal and acute and i think i recovered from “still thinking for him” syndrome.
love love
hope i get 25 on my tomorrows assessment,
saoirse / o5-o6